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[28 Aug 2005|01:44pm] |
Today, I went over to Saras house. I am pissed.
Yes, he did. Hes eating my chips. I'm not very fond of that. That bastard is eating my food. I just bought that with the $2.50 my mom made from her prostituting job. dam. that was my only food.. i was supposed to make that last for days, but now this motherfucker is eating them. So I am pissed as well. Oh well i guess ill starve to death.
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| What is life? |
[20 May 2005|01:41pm] |
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Your Birthdate: June 22 |
While sometimes employing unorthodox approaches, you are capable of handling large scale undertakings.
You assume great responsibility and work long and hard toward completion.
Often, especially in the early part of life, there is rigidity or stubbornness, and a tendency to repress feelings.
Idealistic, you work for the greater good with a good deal of inner strength and charisma.
An extremely capable organizer, but likely to paint with broad strokes rather than detail.
You are very aware and intuitive.
You are subject to a good deal of nervous tension. |
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[16 May 2005|07:18pm] |
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as i lay dying - 94 hours |
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Your Deadly Sins
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Envy: 60%
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Greed: 20%
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Lust: 20%
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Gluttony: 0%
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Pride: 0%
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Sloth: 0%
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Wrath: 0%
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Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%
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You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic. |
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| so deep that it didnt even bleed and Fuck It!!! |
[10 Apr 2005|07:38pm] |
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staind - yesterday |
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I thought it all made sense, i thought i figured it out.........then i found myself in this shit whole, i woke up to this... i woke up to life
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| WTF?! |
[07 Apr 2005|07:48pm] |
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LuVmUfFiN216 [7:39 PM]: so um r u like really the leadsinger 4 flyleaf??
FlyLeaF5 [7:39 PM]: whos this?
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:39 PM]: u wouldnt no me i was just looking up flyleaf website one day and ur s/n came up
FlyLeaF5 [7:40 PM]: yea....i am.....why had you heard of us?
FlyLeaF5 [7:40 PM]: seen us?
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:41 PM]: um like do u sing cassie and breath today?/
FlyLeaF5 [7:41 PM]: what?
FlyLeaF5 [7:42 PM]: are u talkin about the band from texas?
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:42 PM]: yes
FlyLeaF5 [7:42 PM]: with the chick singer!
FlyLeaF5 [7:42 PM]: Dammit
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:42 PM]: yea
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:42 PM]: what
FlyLeaF5 [7:42 PM]: Im the singer from FlyLeaf in yonkers N.Y.
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:42 PM]: o
FlyLeaF5 [7:43 PM]: lol
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:43 PM]: lol im sorry
FlyLeaF5 [7:43 PM]: this has happened so many times
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:43 PM]: really??
FlyLeaF5 [7:43 PM]: yea
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:43 PM]: gah i bet that sucks
LuVmUfFiN216 [7:44 PM]: well i didnt even know that many people knew about flyleaf
FlyLeaF5 [7:44 PM]: lol
FlyLeaF5 [7:44 PM]: yea ...dont worry......we should change our name
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| It's been awhile.... |
[06 Apr 2005|09:04am] |
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Staind.com |
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Ive trying to learn the words to the Atryu song "right side of the bed"....but its pretty fuckin hard to keep the scream going throught the entire verse's...but im pretty sure ill get soon.
Writing a new song, its about Sonja...its called Jade Angel. It'll be a fuckin masterpiece when its done!
Still waiting on the callback from the union..Local 3 baby!
I hope i get picked..it would awesome...my whole life would be set!
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| Fuck Love, Fuck Hate, FuckYou.....I'm Done. |
[13 Feb 2005|07:46pm] |
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Flyleaf - Life |
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This Goes out to all my fake friends,
May 1st is my rebirth.
Anna, Happy Valentines from the bottom of my broken heart.
I think i was "Born A Lie"
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| .....just another broken bottle |
[24 Jan 2005|08:17pm] |
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Adema - freaking out |
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Hi kids,
When i grow up im gonna a burnout stoner loser...
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| .....i am but a waste of your time |
[23 Jan 2005|09:02pm] |
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Moonspell - Mr. Crowley |
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I held this inside for to fucking long
It finally came to its breaking point
It was not your fault
I struck you with all its suppressed force
A darkness rose up from inside me
The fire blarred from my throat
Not even an angels purest love was enough to cure me
I am stuck inside this darkness
I have to stay here
I am not someone who can walk in the sun
I am not someone who does walk in the light of the moon
I am a black heart made of shadow and incased in steel
I have found love
I have lost it
I am Nothing
I hope she is happy
I cant except someone else making her happy
I will gouge out my own eyes in front of Gods blessings for her
I will bleed myself dry on your wedding day
-Forever in Love-In death is peace-
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[11 Nov 2004|11:34am] |
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Cold - whatever you became |
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you are like the g13 blade...the strongest of
inorganic and organic weed around...the high is
almost imediate and lasts for up to 6-7
hours...ur taste look and smell will gather all
around you for a taste...best thing ever...
what type of weed are you
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| Nobody reads this shit anyway! |
[08 Nov 2004|07:16pm] |
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LMcG69 [6:46 PM]: Danny Boy!!!
FlyLeaF5 [6:46 PM]: yo
LMcG69 [6:47 PM]: how are you?
FlyLeaF5 [6:47 PM]: sad
LMcG69 [6:47 PM]: y??
LMcG69 [6:48 PM]: :-(
FlyLeaF5 [6:48 PM]: cause.......i feel like im not good enough
LMcG69 [6:48 PM]: for what?? y would you feel like that
FlyLeaF5 [6:49 PM]: idk.....i just feel sick.....like ..idk.......i just kno im not good enogh and im never going to be
LMcG69 [6:50 PM]: what are you talking about!?! you are too good, i am mean thats how i feel.... i thought the reason we never worked is b/c your too good for me
LMcG69 [6:50 PM]: your great!!
FlyLeaF5 [6:52 PM]: u dont get it....im fucked in the head cant u see that......i was born wrong........they all fucked up and i came out wrong
FlyLeaF5 [6:52 PM]: why doesnt Anna love me?
LMcG69 [6:52 PM]: y are you suck on this girl??
LMcG69 [6:52 PM]: fuck her yo
LMcG69 [6:53 PM]: its not you
LMcG69 [6:53 PM]: its her
FlyLeaF5 [6:53 PM]: its not just her
FlyLeaF5 [6:53 PM]: its so much...i camt even tell anybody
LMcG69 [6:53 PM]: no danny its not you... maybe your just looking for love in the wrong place
FlyLeaF5 [6:54 PM]: but i feel like she could make it better...like maybe i could tell her
FlyLeaF5 [6:54 PM]: all the truth
LMcG69 [6:54 PM]: no she cant... she just making you sad and pissed
FlyLeaF5 [6:54 PM]: u lie
LMcG69 [6:54 PM]: you need a girl thats going to love you for the person that you are
LMcG69 [6:54 PM]: no
LMcG69 [6:54 PM]: Danny trust me... i know
FlyLeaF5 [6:55 PM]: i love her more than anything else in this world
FlyLeaF5 [6:55 PM]: u have no idea
LMcG69 [6:55 PM]: Danny your love this girl that doesnt love you
LMcG69 [6:56 PM]: you need a girl that loves you too
FlyLeaF5 [6:56 PM]: but why?
LMcG69 [6:56 PM]: one that wants you for the way you are
FlyLeaF5 [6:56 PM]: why doesnt she care
LMcG69 [6:56 PM]: you dont have to change for anyone
LMcG69 [6:56 PM]: b/c shes fucked up
FlyLeaF5 [6:56 PM]: not more than i am
LMcG69 [6:56 PM]: she doesnt know what she could have and thats her own loss
LMcG69 [6:57 PM]: you need a girl that will love you for the fucked up person that you are
LMcG69 [6:57 PM]: that will die for you, that will want to be with you and help you
FlyLeaF5 [6:57 PM]: if
LMcG69 [6:57 PM]: not some girl that makes you feel like shit
FlyLeaF5 [6:58 PM]: if i told u half the truth....ude never look at me the sme
LMcG69 [6:58 PM]: danny you can tell me
LMcG69 [6:58 PM]: i wont
FlyLeaF5 [6:58 PM]: something went very wrong when i was a baby or something
LMcG69 [6:59 PM]: trust me, i have help a lot of men with their problems
LMcG69 [6:59 PM]: they have done some fucked up shit
FlyLeaF5 [6:59 PM]: idk...i caNT TALK ABOUT....IT WONT LET ME
LMcG69 [6:59 PM]: it?
FlyLeaF5 [6:59 PM]: SEE...U CANT UNDERSTAND
FlyLeaF5 [6:59 PM]: its a constant though process
FlyLeaF5 [7:00 PM]: it talks...it works on its own
FlyLeaF5 [7:00 PM]: thought process
LMcG69 [7:00 PM]: Danny you need a girl that will love you... that will help you with whatever is going on
FlyLeaF5 [7:00 PM]: it wont ever die will it?
LMcG69 [7:01 PM]: yes it will
LMcG69 [7:01 PM]: when you fine that girl
LMcG69 [7:01 PM]: anna is not her
FlyLeaF5 [7:02 PM]: im so scarred........i think it trying to come out again....ive been trying to hide it
LMcG69 [7:02 PM]: have you talked to your father?
FlyLeaF5 [7:02 PM]: but now when i smoke i dont go numb to it
FlyLeaF5 [7:03 PM]: it just starts talking louder
FlyLeaF5 [7:04 PM]: i think about giving in
LMcG69 [7:06 PM]: dont
LMcG69 [7:06 PM]: talk to your father
LMcG69 [7:06 PM]: you have to
LMcG69 [7:06 PM]: you not alone
LMcG69 [7:06 PM]: **your
FlyLeaF5 [7:06 PM]: id wanna be sent away
FlyLeaF5 [7:06 PM]: i dont
LMcG69 [7:07 PM]: no dont worry
LMcG69 [7:07 PM]: talk to him
LMcG69 [7:07 PM]: you have to talk to someone danny/.
LMcG69 [7:07 PM]: we all love you
FlyLeaF5 [7:08 PM]: idk
FlyLeaF5 [7:08 PM]: i lost my faith in love
LMcG69 [7:08 PM]: dont!!
LMcG69 [7:09 PM]: dont you think i love you
FlyLeaF5 [7:09 PM]: u dont even know me....
FlyLeaF5 [7:09 PM]: no one does
LMcG69 [7:10 PM]: i still love you danny
LMcG69 [7:12 PM]: Danny you have to know that!!
LMcG69 [7:12 PM]: i Love you!
LMcG69 [7:12 PM]: i always have
LMcG69 [7:12 PM]: i always will
FlyLeaF5 [7:12 PM]: u dont feel for me...what i feel for her...u cant
FlyLeaF5 [7:13 PM]: love is a lonely dream
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| Halloween |
[31 Oct 2004|12:26pm] |
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 I'm Okay( trust me) |
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A perfect Circle - imagine |
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As i look around sometimes i get sad, cause i just dont know where to go. So whats new in a yonkers life?.......weed, beer, coke, exstasy, speed, people getting mowed down by cars. What a wicked world we live in. My new staind cover band is supposed to practice today, should be fun.
Emo story of the day: I got a sharp pain in my heart the other day. I put my hand on my chest to feel the beatting of my heart. It reminded me of the times i used to lay down on Anna's bed beside her. I would put my head on her chest and listen to her heart beat....it used to let me know that our love was still alive....Does a broken heart still beat at the same rhythm???
P.S. Happy Birthday Nick P. You were born on halloween....fuckin cool.
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| I knew it! |
[18 Sep 2004|04:29pm] |
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36 crazyfists - end of august |
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FlyLeaF5 [4:25 PM]: hi
SmarterChild [4:25 PM]: Hi FlyLeaF5, I'm SmarterChild!
I'm your new robot friend.
There is one question I have to ask you, though. How old are you?
1 Over 17
2 13-17
3 Under 13
FlyLeaF5 [4:27 PM]: 1
SmarterChild [4:27 PM]: Cool.
FlyLeaF5 [4:27 PM]: i need to ask u something
SmarterChild [4:27 PM]: That's rather fascinating.
FlyLeaF5 [4:27 PM]: no whatas fascinating is that ur gay
SmarterChild [4:27 PM]: I don't think that really matters.
FlyLeaF5 [4:27 PM]: so u r?
SmarterChild [4:27 PM]: You better believe it.
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[14 Sep 2004|07:21pm] |
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atreyu - shot through the heart (bon jovi cover) |
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Dear Anna,
I died a long, long time ago.
Dont you remember???
You killed me.....
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| "And my scars remind me that the past is real" |
[05 Sep 2004|10:31am] |
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PaPa RoacH - Getting away with murder(CD) |
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I had a Fucking Panic attack last night.
Something has to change, and it has to be soon.
I hate my Fucking Life.
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| "So, where the fuck have you been?" |
[31 Aug 2004|04:12pm] |
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staind - fade |
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Fuck You!.....thats right....YOU. Where have i been lately??? It makes no fucking difference. Soon Rich is gonna leave and then you'll probably never see me,.....i'll be the shadow of a memory you wish you could forget. It would really make no difference to any of you...if i reached my goals or if i was strung out on speed or dead. So where have i really been?
I've been discovering myself...and you know what Ive fuckin found myself......i found my emotions i rediscovered the hate that lives in me.....this spider has finally learned how to string a web.
With all this: all i can say is "fuck you all."
FlyLeaF Fuckin Rock's....and if you dont agree...you can suck my fuckin' DICK.......and yeah'...ill like it!
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[29 Aug 2004|12:48pm] |
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pillar - fireproof |
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Your: Mysterious eyes. All in the title. Your
independant secretive and myseterious. You
appear cold and distant, but hey, at leats no
one messes with you.
What type of eyes do you have?
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| i fell so alone sometimes. |
[23 Aug 2004|01:08pm] |
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finger eleven -stay in shadow |
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I just feel so......under-rated. I havent done shit with the band since we released our demo...i guess its just up to the streets to either make us or brake us. If u havent heard the demo..then get in touch with someone from the band ...or someone close enough with the band to have a copy. No sex....since like the day before i tripped on mushrooms....that was about 2 monthes ago.....i guess i started to noticablly change do to the drugs...but whatever....i think i was thinkin about hanging out with an ex girlfriend...but...Fuck It.
I now choose to sit in the darkness i have created
My entire heart goes out to one tormented soul..Brianna I Love You...and you must promise me to never give up. No matter what life faces you with.
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| So there's this girl... |
[06 Aug 2004|05:21pm] |
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Billy Idol - White Wedding |
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I really like her...but i went out with her best friend....like 2 years ago....so because of that....i guess it work....at least according to her....to bad we were talking about someone else as an example. I just wanted to kiss her so bad last night.....i guess i should seperate myself from her to....i just cant seem to do anything right.
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